In Temburong.. At Karangan recreational area to be exact.. And it was frightening..

The thing is I am a spontaneous daredevil and therefore I sometimes do vertain things without thinking about it first, which is usually not my thing so anyway.. After venturing the area with Mas and Bibie, who were 'stranded' at the other bank .. I went adrift brought by the rapid waters downstream in the hope that Mas or Bibie would be able to catch me..

But apparently faith has other things written down for me today.. In the moment of desperation, the thought of not being able to stop where I wanted to stop, panicked me.. I was scared to death, literally.. I was struggling to stay afloat despite the rapids which were bringing me up and down the water.. Water entered my throat and I almost gave up fighting.. Almost gave up living.. Almost.. For a moment there I wanted to just drown because of all the things that I destroyed..

Then I started to fight again.. Just because of three simple thoughts that crossed my mind.. First was my parents and how they love me.. Second was my friends who were there with me.. Finally people who died / survived from downing.. With that I started to move my limbs again.. I started to struggle against the rapid nature of rivers.. I wanted to live again.. To continue living my life as it is.. Because things were finally starting to be better again.. I met love and I now know life, so I wont let it go again..

Fortunately, I managed to swim against the raging water for the opposite bank.. Adreanalin was pumping at high speed in my veins.. I was shaking.. When I grabbed the boulders, I hanged on for life.. Mas was there worrying herself.. I got up slowly, my body and feet were aching so bad, and still does.. Got up and looked around, gave Mas a thumbs up then started a plan, which was to walk painfully along the pebble bank which I was on, across a decaying tree-bridge, along another painful steep bank to the other and finally find the right spot to swim across to where the others were..

And I swam for my life across the river to the clay bank.. By this time my body was aching so bad and my limbs were ready to give up.. When reaching them, I just smiled.. Smiled and make my place on the rocks.. 'Jara ku nyamu...' I playfully teased them and said that next time we'd go to Selapun instead.. Hehe.. Then we had lunch and chatted for a good hour or so.. and left the area..

And now, 9 hours after the incident, I sit here in the t.v. area with my brother and his girldfriend wathing Mr. Bean / Akademi Fantasia, with a headache and several bruises forming on my thighs and my left knee..

I have yet to tell my parents and my girlfriend.. Maybe I'll just tell her tomorrow when she's at home with me.. And I love her more than yesterday..

-peace out-